Spaz Moment

I promise I am planning on putting up a actual content post soon (at latest Friday), but I had to share this!

Just found out there is a book on Mani.

It is written by Galina Krasskova, who is one of the few I have found that talks about my beloved (in a sort of guardian/paternal way) Mani.

The second I saw it I ordered.

Here is the link.

I just found it, and just ordered it so no thoughts on it yet obviously. I will probably do a review once received and read.

Basically when I came across it the reaction was “What?! How did I not know about this?!

Super excited to get this.

On another note, I also just  got a necklace of Freya (which I will most likely post pictures of later) and have a Freya statue on the way. Funny thing about the necklace, wasn’t expecting it to come until this week but it ended up showing last Friday (aka Freya’s Day)! And the statue? Expected delivery date is this Friday.

Wow.

That is all for the moment. Had to share the spazziness as well as let anyone else interested know about this book. I happened upon it while looking up stuff for my altar for Him.

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Fuckery that really needs attention

So Lucius Svartwulf Helson and Halstead have had their own war going on between the two. I’ve enjoyed the posts by Lucius but like I said before I usually try to stay out of the drama (as much as I actually like Lucius).

But in a comment on this post, Halstead has changed my decision to stay out of it.

In a comment he called Lucius’s Gods “sad little gods”. Keep in mind (if you didn’t figure out from this name) Lucius is a Heathen. I can tolerate attacking a person (to an extent) but start insulting my Gods, and it won’t go well for you.

Here is links to all the posts Lucius made:

If Your Paganism is Anthropocentric, I Don’t Want Your Paganism

Maybe I’m Not Here to Save Your World

Everyone Wants to Save The World Part 1

Everyone wants to save the World Part 2

Let’s Disenchant the World! Part 1

Let’s Disenchant the World! Part 2

Let’s Disenchant the World! Part 3

I Am A Special Snowflake….Apparently.

Everyone wants to save the world part 1

Everyone wants to save the world part 2

To Quote Nox: “I Warned You!” Part 1

To Quote Nox: “I Warned You!” Part 2

I am not by any means under any impression that I’m a “Big Name” but keep in mind this “Atheist Pagan”, I put it in quotes because it is on of the dumbest things I’ve ever heard, is insulting our Gods and I won’t stand by for it.

Please share this shit out of this. Share it and ask others to share. Spread it around as much as you can.

Normally I wouldn’t do something like this but he really brought it on himself.

To say I’m pissed is an understatement.

Wolf’s gifts for the Wolf

So everything is done and received. Got my candle, and finished my little project for Fenrir.

If you have been keeping up with my evolving relationship with Fenrir, I promised him an answer to whether or not I would marry him once I got the candle. Got the candle, had to answer. Answer was a tentative yes (which had him pouting for awhile), with a long engagement. He knows I’m wanting to work on my relationship with Thor more before taking that step, but I love him. I may be a little bit of a commitment-phobe to be honest. Even with my boyfriend on this side of the fence, I have to fight the urge to run sometimes.

Without further or do, pictures!

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This is the candle for Fenrir I commissioned Beth to make. She is always good about working with me on the scents for custom candles. I usually know colors, but scent is something I have no idea about. She always has good options and they always work out great. I told her I wanted something woodsy, and she came up with fir needle, black pine, and cedar wood. I love it.

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I wear this just about everyday. I bought it off Seb. It went on sale at just the right moment. It is made with dark Labradorite (which is one of my favorite stones). There is some flash on the beads but they are really had to capture without spending more time on it than I really have.

And my project for Him!

*insert drum roll*

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This is the first necklace I have ever made.

The pendant is hand carved out of Ziricote (type of wood from South America) and finished with a lacquer. Not only do I love the image of the howling wolf but the wood pendant is a nod to his roots being born in the iron wood.

The large beads are labradorite which have an amazing flash to them. The smaller being smoky quartz with hematite spacers.

Honestly, the necklace was very influenced by both Beth and Sebastian. But he was wanting it specially made by my own hands (normally I buy stuff from them, only way I’m artistic usually is sketching).

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I’m really proud of how it turned out. At first it was a little rocky. I had to order all the beads and the pendant online so that can be semi risky (no really good local places to get that kind of stuff). The smoky quartz beads were actually smaller than they were supposed to so I had to reconsider my original plan of design. It actually turned out better this way than I originally planned (Fenrir: I know what I’m doing, thank you).

Now guess who wants a necklace made too?

Freya: *waiving spastically*

Me: You’re lucky I love you.

Freya: *laughs maniacally*

Thor is good, he’s getting a tattoo.

Until next time loves.

Happy Mani’s Day!

Things are Escalating

So things have escalated with Mr. Fenrir this past week.

Since Frey has been hanging around Fenrir has gotten rather territorial. I have to get on to him a bit about it sometimes. He is improving though.

I’m ordering a special made candle for him and I’m also working on my own project for him. I’m not telling what it is. I’ve ordered the materials, just have to wait for them to come in.

We spent a lot of time together over the weekend.

I learned that he likes older/classic rock. He really seems to like Zeppelin and The Who, as well as Journey.

After a bit of nooky time we both had a smoke and I was playing my iHeart radio Journey channel and it was nothing but love ballads. He just kind of sat there smiling, smoking his cigarette while I gave him the side eye.

That night I had a dream about a scene mentioned here. It’s about a spirit-worker that horsed Fenrir. They started out with him being chained up. In the dream I was there this happened. The moment Fenrir came through, he realized he was bound and instantly became savage. At the beginning I was kind of in the middle of the crowd surrounding the man. Once he went savage I quickly pushed my way to the front. To him. I was screaming at the ones that bound him, calling them monsters as they try to stop me from approaching the savage and bound man. I got close to him and he instantly stopped. He looked at me with such sorrow in his dark brown eyes. I went to him and held him, and he wept. Whimpering “why did they do this to me? What have I done to deserve this?” As he wept I slowly undid the chains.

I feel like this was Fenrir’s way of showing me how he feels about it.

For awhile now I’ve been getting the “I want to take things to the next level” feels from Fenrir. Previously I had made a point with Thor that I wasn’t interested in being a godspouse. Just didn’t feel like it was right for me as much as I love Thor (which by the way hasn’t changed at all). But Fenrir is much more interested in it and there have been hints about children, which that is a whole other story.

Our relationship is very different from the relationship I have with Thor. So taking things to the next level will not mean I loose Thor in any way shape or form and Fenrir is very much aware of this fact. That said, I’m starting to think I might actually be able to go that far with Fenrir.

Freya is giving the thumbs up on the whole thing too.

Updates as they come.

Happy Mani’s day. Until next time loves.

Dance Magic, Dance

So, Friday night, as I said I did my Profession.

During it was very serious and solemn.

After? Not so much.

After it was done I got applause which made me feel pretty awkward to say the least.

Now during it I had my iHeart Radio app going on the Ride of the Valkyries channel (if you don’t know what iHeart Radio is it’s like Pandora, but you chose a band or song and then they base a channel off that and play music similar to that) playing softly in the background. After the applause? Magic Dance from the Labyrinth started playing. Not exactly related and at first I couldn’t help but laugh.

If you aren’t sure which song that is, here’s a hint:

You remind me of the babe.

What babe?

The babe with the power.

What power?

The power of voodoo.

Who do?

You do?

Do what?

Remind me of the babe.

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The only time I have ever found David Bowie attractive. I don’t know what it is about this movie but, mmmmm.

If you haven’t seen The Labyrinth, how dare you, go watch it right meow! You will thank me later.

Any who, when it first came on I just started laughing. Freya wasn’t having any of that. So I ended up dancing with Freya, Thor (which is hilarious to watch), Frigga, and Frey got in on the action too while Loki stood to the side violently playing air guitar. I was laughing the whole time. I got a resounding howl from the Wolf tribe. They have been made aware of my intention to start work with them.

After the song was over Thor took my face in his hands and looked me right in the eyes, “Everything is going to change.”

Well then.

This was all done under the dark moonless sky. To say the least it was a bit sad that Mani couldn’t attend, but with the new moon it is when his connection is the weakest.

New Moon, New Beginnings

Last night I did another reading with my faerie deck. This time I got the Priestess (finally they got past the Devil).

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This card has really interesting timing on it.

I’m planning on doing my official Profession tonight. My dedication to the realms of Asgard, Vanaheim, and Mani (who I consider to be outside of those realms). I got special made candles from Nono (aka Sebastian), which are awesome. I actually ended up with two Mani candles though the purchase was for only three candles. The second one was smaller so I’m thinking it was left over stuff.

Now, my dedication is not something I’m saying anyone else should do, but it just felt right to me. And this card really showed me that it is right.

In the description it talked about the Priestess being near an oak, which is a tree that does tend to be associated with Thor. And for the new viewers at home, Thor is really the one that brought me on this path.

As a matter of fact, August 2nd was the anniversary of that meeting.

So, it’s about time that I do this and just feels right.

Side note

So a little side note that I forgot to add to my last post.

I’m mentioning this because of the whole thing about my brother-in-law calling my younger brother (and myself by the way, but he was a lot more bothered by it than me) crazy for having the kind of relationship with Them that we do.

I explained to him talking to someone who hasn’t experienced this kind of stuff is really difficult (especially if its a tool like my brother-in-law) and most people will think you crazy.

My thought process is there is enough of us out there, and we can’t all be crazy.

So, as someone who has a very close relationship with Them, and sees at least one of Them on a daily basis, I encourage anyone who is in the same boat to contact me if they need someone to talk to.

*Disclaimer*

I am not a trained therapist.

I am not a medical physician/doctor.

I cannot and will not give advise on medication or anything medically related.

That said, I will listen if you want someone to just talk about it. In normal every day life matters, or religion type related things, if asked, I will offer advise if I have any to give.

Feel free to email me at wolfmoonchild09 at gmail dot com.  3

If I don’t reply right away, give me some time. I try to check my email everyday. If we have gone through a conversation and I stop answering it is most likely that I didn’t really have anything to say. I don’t like to say something meaningless just to say something.

The Blue Moon and Astral with the Wolf

I’ve been meaning to post this for a couple days now (the blue moon was Friday, so yea) but I have been quite on the busy side. More stuff in my personal life has happened since this, but that will be in another post.

On the night of the Blue Moon, where I was at it was huge. I had a lot of stuff I had to do that day but I manage to take out some time that night to spend with Mani. I went outside to sit under the moon just to get closer.

He came to me and gave me a tight hug, but of course we weren’t alone. Freya, Thor and Fenrir decided they all needed to tag along.

I told him of my plans to finally do a proper dedication to him and the realms of Vanaheim (especially in light of my recent past life reading) and Asgard.

Mani: You don’t have to do that, especially not for me. I know you. I know your soul. You do what feels right for you. My child. My moon child. My Wild Moon child.

*kisses me on the forehead*

His words seemed to reach into me, stroke at my heart strings, and almost bring me to tears.

That’s when things changed.

I’ve never actually astral travelled, at least not that I can remember. They have always just came to me, so it wasn’t really something I put much effort into. Though, now that I think about it, that first night when Thor came to me I think he kind of pulled me into the astral. Other than that, the closest would be when I get intimate with Thor an Fenrir. Have mentioned that my relationship with Fenrir has escalated quite a bit? This is also the same night, thanks to Fenrir, I found out in astral I have very curly red hair. Think Merida’s hair.

Anyway, getting off topic a bit.

After Mani’s word, and pushing back the tears, Fenrir and Freya both beckoned me to come, so I followed.

I looked around and found myself in a clearing, close to the edge of sight the clearing was surrounded by forest. The moon was brighter, and even bigger. The stars were so bright you could actually see them through the trees in the distance. I still have no idea exactly where I ended up. I kind of looked around confused.

Fenrir: You will get the hang of it.

(Side note: The way Fenrir comes to me is usually in a human form. He looks a little similar to the actor who plays Rollo in Vikings, but with a smaller slightly up turned nose, wider in the shoulders, and usually short hair jet black hair. Sometimes he will have the side shaved and the top longer but up in a man bun, and tight beard. He has a deep raspy voice to me.)

I took this opportunity to grab my hair and pull it to my face. I wanted to confirm what my hair looked like. I had only a glimpse of it when Fenrir had grabbed a fist full of my hair and pulled when we were doing things. (He’s rougher than Thor tends to be, not a bad thing.) And what I had caught a glimpse of before was right. Very curly, orangey red hair, varying shades with natural highlights.

Me: Why did no one tell me!

Fenrir: *Raspy chuckling*

Freya : You had to find out on your own. You need to. We can’t give you the answers. You have to find them on your own, We can simply guide you. If We just do it for you, or just give you the answers, you will never truly learn. *Places her hand on her hip* And I hope you are not complaining. Red is the color of passion, and that passion is one of the things I love about you.

Me: No, I actually like it. I just would have never had guessed.

Thor: *Gets closer, taking a handful of my hair and bringing to his nose* I love it.

Me: *I look down to find even my body is different. My general shape is similar, but I’m thinner with a bit more muscle tone in my legs. I look up at them.* So this is what You see.

Freya: Not necessarily all the time. I see also what you see on a daily basis. Do not even begin to think it is any less beautiful than this. Yes, this is you, but over there is you too. Both are equally as important. We love all of you, both sides, the full picture.

Mani: Just be true to yourself, and feel that love.

Fenrir: *Pulls my head forward, stooping down so your foreheads touch, his almost black brown eyes staring into mine* Be the Alpha you are meant to be.

Mani: *Shakes his head*

Freya: *Crosses her arms, smiling* I will not object to her taking more control over her life.

Fenrir: *Pulls away, a mischievous smirk on his face* This is getting too serious. I have a surprise. *He backs up a few feet and shift his form, turning into the great large, black wolf I had seen him the first time he tried to contact me*

I feel a sort of shimmer on my senses and suddenly I had shifted too. I shifted into a brown and red wolf, much small than Him. It freaked me out and I instantly changed back into my regular form.

Fenrir: *laughs loudly, still in his wolf form*

Me: What in Helheim!

Freya and Thor both laugh, though they both looked a little surprised themselves.

 Mani came back over to me and placed a hand on my cheek. “I must go now. I must always be on the move.” And he was gone. Then the shimmer came through again, and again I shifted.

I ended up actually growling. At that Fenrir howled a farewell for Mani’s departure. I followed suite, mine higher in pitch than his created almost a song.

After, I shift back and glared at him.

Me: Stop that!

Fenrir: *laughing again*

 I sighed and lied down on the cool, slightly damp grass, staring up as the moon slowly began to move. Fenrir curled up next my side, Thor on my other side, holding my hand and Freya was laying so that the top of her head was touching my. She put her hand in the air so that I can see, wanting my other hand. I placed it in hers. Holding hands we placed them in the grass next to Fenrir’s head.

Freya: Mani is right you know. You don’t have to do it, but I love that you want to.

We all lie down for a bit.

Finally I had to go back in, I was completely drained and needed to sleep. I got to sleep on my own that night for once.

Progress

In my life I am always trying to progress further. For quite sometime I have been concentrating on further my knowledge of and relationship with Them.

Just got my new Mjolnir in the mail on Monday (been too busy to post a picture).

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I’m so in love with necklace. I tend to spoil/spend the most money on Thor.

Since starting my relationship with my current boyfriend, my relationship with Thor has been a bit on the strained side, but my relationship with Freya and Mani has gotten stronger. I’ve also been actually developing a relationship with Fenrir. He has told me his goal with me is to turn me into an “Alpha Wolf”, not exactly something I was necessarily wanting to do but I’m not fighting it.  My initial reaction was “Well, these people already say I’m Alpha”, a half joking remark. He simply shook his head at me. Well then.

Last Wednesday he decided he wanted to get in bed with me and snuggle up, at this point I starting feeling a weird pressure in the middle of my forehead. Not sure what that was about.

But, currently working on mending my relationship with Thor, which hasn’t been that difficult.

Also has become an situation of having two mothers, Freya and Frigga. It’s almost like one for strength and one for compassion. And then there is Mani, the one that has taken a fatherly role for me, and alluding to it not being the first time in my life he has done this. So that is a whole other bag of worms.

And as I said in my last post, it’s research time for me. I’m gathering up as much information on The Wild Hunt as I possibly can. The time will be upon us before you know it (hopefully).

That’s about as much as far as updates on my devotion as I got for the moment.

My little brother just got claimed by Anubis (for an update on him) and I have been trying to help him out with his new path as much as possible. So now he has Bast and Anubis.

Also!

Just a reminder my email address is on the side there if you ever want to talk. Chit chat is cool, I am also open to giving advise when I can and I’m fairly good at interpreting dreams. Just throwing that out there.