I’ve been meaning to post this for a couple days now (the blue moon was Friday, so yea) but I have been quite on the busy side. More stuff in my personal life has happened since this, but that will be in another post.
On the night of the Blue Moon, where I was at it was huge. I had a lot of stuff I had to do that day but I manage to take out some time that night to spend with Mani. I went outside to sit under the moon just to get closer.
He came to me and gave me a tight hug, but of course we weren’t alone. Freya, Thor and Fenrir decided they all needed to tag along.
I told him of my plans to finally do a proper dedication to him and the realms of Vanaheim (especially in light of my recent past life reading) and Asgard.
Mani: You don’t have to do that, especially not for me. I know you. I know your soul. You do what feels right for you. My child. My moon child. My Wild Moon child.
*kisses me on the forehead*
His words seemed to reach into me, stroke at my heart strings, and almost bring me to tears.
That’s when things changed.
I’ve never actually astral travelled, at least not that I can remember. They have always just came to me, so it wasn’t really something I put much effort into. Though, now that I think about it, that first night when Thor came to me I think he kind of pulled me into the astral. Other than that, the closest would be when I get intimate with Thor an Fenrir. Have mentioned that my relationship with Fenrir has escalated quite a bit? This is also the same night, thanks to Fenrir, I found out in astral I have very curly red hair. Think Merida’s hair.
Anyway, getting off topic a bit.
After Mani’s word, and pushing back the tears, Fenrir and Freya both beckoned me to come, so I followed.
I looked around and found myself in a clearing, close to the edge of sight the clearing was surrounded by forest. The moon was brighter, and even bigger. The stars were so bright you could actually see them through the trees in the distance. I still have no idea exactly where I ended up. I kind of looked around confused.
Fenrir: You will get the hang of it.
(Side note: The way Fenrir comes to me is usually in a human form. He looks a little similar to the actor who plays Rollo in Vikings, but with a smaller slightly up turned nose, wider in the shoulders, and usually short hair jet black hair. Sometimes he will have the side shaved and the top longer but up in a man bun, and tight beard. He has a deep raspy voice to me.)
I took this opportunity to grab my hair and pull it to my face. I wanted to confirm what my hair looked like. I had only a glimpse of it when Fenrir had grabbed a fist full of my hair and pulled when we were doing things. (He’s rougher than Thor tends to be, not a bad thing.) And what I had caught a glimpse of before was right. Very curly, orangey red hair, varying shades with natural highlights.
Me: Why did no one tell me!
Fenrir: *Raspy chuckling*
Freya : You had to find out on your own. You need to. We can’t give you the answers. You have to find them on your own, We can simply guide you. If We just do it for you, or just give you the answers, you will never truly learn. *Places her hand on her hip* And I hope you are not complaining. Red is the color of passion, and that passion is one of the things I love about you.
Me: No, I actually like it. I just would have never had guessed.
Thor: *Gets closer, taking a handful of my hair and bringing to his nose* I love it.
Me: *I look down to find even my body is different. My general shape is similar, but I’m thinner with a bit more muscle tone in my legs. I look up at them.* So this is what You see.
Freya: Not necessarily all the time. I see also what you see on a daily basis. Do not even begin to think it is any less beautiful than this. Yes, this is you, but over there is you too. Both are equally as important. We love all of you, both sides, the full picture.
Mani: Just be true to yourself, and feel that love.
Fenrir: *Pulls my head forward, stooping down so your foreheads touch, his almost black brown eyes staring into mine* Be the Alpha you are meant to be.
Mani: *Shakes his head*
Freya: *Crosses her arms, smiling* I will not object to her taking more control over her life.
Fenrir: *Pulls away, a mischievous smirk on his face* This is getting too serious. I have a surprise. *He backs up a few feet and shift his form, turning into the great large, black wolf I had seen him the first time he tried to contact me*
I feel a sort of shimmer on my senses and suddenly I had shifted too. I shifted into a brown and red wolf, much small than Him. It freaked me out and I instantly changed back into my regular form.
Fenrir: *laughs loudly, still in his wolf form*
Me: What in Helheim!
Freya and Thor both laugh, though they both looked a little surprised themselves.
Mani came back over to me and placed a hand on my cheek. “I must go now. I must always be on the move.” And he was gone. Then the shimmer came through again, and again I shifted.
I ended up actually growling. At that Fenrir howled a farewell for Mani’s departure. I followed suite, mine higher in pitch than his created almost a song.
After, I shift back and glared at him.
Me: Stop that!
Fenrir: *laughing again*
I sighed and lied down on the cool, slightly damp grass, staring up as the moon slowly began to move. Fenrir curled up next my side, Thor on my other side, holding my hand and Freya was laying so that the top of her head was touching my. She put her hand in the air so that I can see, wanting my other hand. I placed it in hers. Holding hands we placed them in the grass next to Fenrir’s head.
Freya: Mani is right you know. You don’t have to do it, but I love that you want to.
We all lie down for a bit.
Finally I had to go back in, I was completely drained and needed to sleep. I got to sleep on my own that night for once.