As promised, now you know what this wolf looks like. I really need to redo my hair. Not much to update on personal wise. Going to do a separate post on tattoos if I have enough time.
I did get the sheets (already knew that due to peeping) but I also ended up getting bed set and new pillow with it. Exchanging the bed set today. It is white and black and Paris themed. I reluctantly told my parents (not wanting to offend them) that I didn’t like it. I almost never tell people when I don’t like the present they give me. When I give presents, I always put a lot of thought into them and try my best to get something that will be exciting to the person as well as something they can use. Presents, traditionally, are a sign of your companionship/kinship/relationship with someone. One sided gift giving (unless for someone like a child that does not have the capability to reciprocate) is thought of almost as an insult. It would be something that either they can practically use or has monetary value, something that could help them financially. One sided gift giving, outside of my family, is something that I have grown used to. I spent a great deal on Fen when we were still friends. That was part of the reason I no longer associate with him. He had promised me he was going to get me birthday presents (my birthday is in July, and I didn’t ask him for presents) and then when it was time to deliver he either backed out or came up with an excuse. It’s a perfect example of the one sided relationship. He was the Alpha wolf. He wanted admiration but was unwilling to give it back.
For me, the monetary value of the present is irrelevant. It is how much thought was actually put into it. I do tend to spend a lot on presents for other people, but I put more time into finding the right present than I do worrying about the price of it.
I’m meeting up with Shadow today to give her the presents I got for her. She already knows what I got her but the excitement is still there for her to see exactly what it is. I spend hours trying to find exactly what I wanted for her, something I knew she wanted.
I had given J his presents, and he absolutely loved them. He had gotten some for me but they were late. After the whole ordeal, I told him to get his money back for them. Those presents will mean more to me than they should and would to him. Outside of my family, only one previous boyfriend and Shadow have ever gotten me any presents. With that kind of treatment, anything from him would mean too much when it shouldn’t.
Most people don’t look at presents the same why I do. My feeling about them comes from my ancestors, for that is the way they looked at them. I don’t take it lightly.