So, as you may recall from my previous post, things are getting a bit on the complicated side with Fenrir.
Last night, I decided to do a simple one card tarot pull to try to confirm what I’ve been feeling (confirmation is always a good thing). Fenrir specifically requested I use my Tarot Illuminati deck.
Simple question, what does Fenrir want to come of our relationship.
Guess what card I pulled.
Ten of cups.
Just looking at the imagery it is pretty obvious.
I pulled it and looked at him and he just had this smirk on his face. I groaned and looked up the meaning per the book.
With the Tarot Illuminati deck, each minor arcana has a name and the ten of cups is call “The Happily Ever After”.
Could you be any more fucking obvious wolf boy? (Fenrir: That’s Mr. Wolf Boy to you.)
The description story just talked about a couple that met, fell in love and got married.
Well, that’s kind of that. No more room to question it.
I moved on and went back to my Mystic Faerie Tarot to ask Freya how she felt about it.
The knave of wands.
The description was about the knave always waiting before taking a risk to make sure what ever he does, he does it perfectly. But this waiting causes him to miss opportunities.
Thank Freya, for holding up the mirror for me. It does sound so a lot like me. Literally what I was doing yesterday was reading up on being a godspouse. Trying to find as much information as I could find. Research, it’s what I do. All the while Fenrir sitting behind me, shoulder reading. At first he poked my cheek and called me a nerd.
Honestly, with all the research I’ve been doing it really started to push the fact that I don’t really feel it’s right for me. I don’t know if I could make an astral relationship take precedence over a relationship this side of the fence. I haven’t talked about him much but I am still with my boyfriend who I refer to as batman. That relationship is going on four months now.
I know Freya isn’t wanting me to keep pondering this but it is in my nature. I’ll be discussing more with Fenrir on how this will pan out if I agree to it.
In the mean time more research. Especially since I told Him I’d give him an answer when the candle I special ordered for him comes in, and I just got a notification that the candle shipped.
Until next time my loves.